A toast to all the “Pippens’”

January 31st, 2011 | Keith | Quotes of the Day, All about Keith

Everybody thinks that thery're Jordan so I'm sending a shout out to all the "Pippens'" in the world.

This is actually my first post of the year. I'm not certain that there's anybody out there left who even reads my blog. I have to say that whether or not it's being read by millions or by just one person, I feel encouraged by this new Year ahead.

This year, I'm turning 34 and there are alot of things that I have yet to accomplish although I had envisioned that I would have journeyed further in my goals and aspirations. I will give it my all this year, as I have already begun my "transformation" if you will.

Last year, even the year before (but especially 2010) was quite difficult for me. I had met a woman in which I thought she'd be the person in which could be my life partner and who would inspire me to excel to new heights. But instead, I suffered at the hands of an incredibly selfish, disrespectful and negative person. The battles occoured changed me, as I tried to understand why she was acting the way she was towards me. I would try to deplomatically talk with her in order to work things out, I would get angry and I even begged! All to no evail as in the end, after she expressed how much she cared for me, spend her life with me and that she wanted to "go away" somewhere together, she canceled at the last minute our trip to go to Jamaica to spend Christmas with my Parents & my sister.

I did end up going alone, and it turned out to be a great trip with my dear friend, Big Truck a.k.a Buju came down and we celebrated New Year's with my beautiful cousin with fireworks alone a pier in Mo-bay!

The thing was, despite my disappointment, anger and sadness about this whole situation, my heart was missing Ms Lee. I never felt so low, I never felt so alone and I never stooped so low by begging her to show me some respect… Oh man, what was I thinking… I guess it's clear that I was not. My heart never before cared for anyone that much. I have been blessed to have had very meaningful relationships in my past with very special people. With her, it felt like it was mean to be.

Love isn't just a word for me. When I love someone, it's for life, I will always have a part of my heart that will care for that person. I felt that the love we shared was worth fighting to keep, to grow and that it deserved a fair chance. We never really had that chance as we had a long distance relationship, a cultural difference and we were very much the opposite on many levels.

I know now that I had a big role for all the hurt I endured because I am the person who chose to stay with Jenn despite seeing the signs loud and clear that she didn't deserve my love. That when I knew it was time to walk away, I chose to give the relationship another go. 

I wanted to give us a chance. There was something very special between us in the quiet moments, and when we laughed. We could be doing anything and and were happy together, no other love could compare.

Writing this blog post is and has helped me cope and more importantly come to terms with the relationship and move on. It's hard loving someone with a passion only not to receive the same back in return.

As I write earlier, a toast going out to the Pippen's on this world, because when you are untied with your Jordan, both of you will shine and take the game to the next level.*

Keith